That fed up feeling...

That fed up feeling...

You know that feeling you get when you just feel tired, bored, sick of having to cope with the same rubbish or the same nonsense all the time? That's the fed up feeling. When everything begins to feel trivial and stupid, where day to day actions become a hard struggle and you just wish it would stop and that you could relax everyday.
It's difficult to describe it to anyone because of the fear that comes with it. Fear of looking stupid, fear of being told you're mad or crazy or sad or depressed... But you're not, you're just fed up.
I miss how things used to be when the hardest decision in the school year was who you would sit next to in your lesson not what you're going to do when you leave high school. The sudden realisation for me that I'm about to make one of the biggest and most important changes in my life does rather scare me. Half way through my GCSE's then off to college to study 4 A-levels in September, which would then determine what I would do for the rest of my life. Wow. That's a scary thought.
In exactly 1 month and 11 days it will be my 16th birthday, then soon enough it'll be my 17th and I'll be learning to drive then my 18th and I'll be deciding where to go to university and what I was going to do with my life. Frankly, I'm dreading it. Hence why I have made the important decision to live life in the moment, life for today and yes in the most cliche, cringey awfully hipster way you really do yolo. Yes, I said it, yolo. We only get this one shot in this life until the next, so why not make a pretty good one of it...

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Life is like a cherry bakewell.

So, I orignally had the idea that I wanted every blog post to have the same format, the same style, colour and layout, but I recently descovered the blogger app so I can blog from wherever which I find to be, totally quality!
But yeah, so life is like a cherry bakewell. You have your ups downs and your special moments. Your pastry cakey bit, thats your friendships, your daily struggles and everything you put up with just for the sake of putting up with. Its what holds daily life together and what you have to put up with whether you like it or not. The white delicious icing is the emotional times, when you have happy amazingly tasty moments when everything is amazing and you feel happy for the first time in ages, but mixed in are the sadness, the tears the heartbreaks and the struggles, and when life gets tough so does the icing and its bitter and horrible and you struggle. But then you get the cherry, the cherry on top. The laughs, smiles, the moments when you cry because something or someone is so perfect, when something goes the way you planned or you succeed in a life plan. But rarely people eat the cherry, and they carry on battling with the hard icing and crumbling pastry. But the thing is if you enjoy the whole thing at once learn to accept the hardships, evil forthcomings and tears as well as the smiles, laughs and happy tears, you'll see you really do have something amazing.

That comparison probably made no sense to anyone but yeah. I'm reflecting on life with a cherry bakewell or 5.its 23:14, it's been a long rough week and im tired. Excuse my ramblings. Just think about it. Life is what you take it to be, so make it yours 💜🎀

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